Hope's Blog

  This documentary definitely makes the list of top films I've watched. Even the a pro-choice view, it was still an eye opener to the many reasons why some women not necessarily want, but need to have abortions. Multiple scenes stood out two me and its hard to choose just one that was significant. One in particular made me sad and tear up a little. A 16 year old girl came in to talk with the doctors about her pregnancy. Mind you, she was pro-life and a catholic. They spoke with her parents and her boyfriend's parents to talk about what they should do and they all insisted that she keep the baby. They told her that if she went through with the abortion she would be a "murder." She also said that if she had the baby, she wouldn't be able to walk away from it and she didn't want to have one in the first place. I felt sad for her because whether someone is pro-choice or pro-life, this isn't something anyone should go through. Even some of the doctors working w

 This week finally looked out for me. I feel as if I gained some sort of confidence over night. I felt happier with myself and my school work, probably because I have 2 classes with 'real' assignments. I finally mustered up the courage to talk to my professor, it probably shouldn't be that big of a deal but social anxiety is no joke apparently. Maybe that's why I felt better with myself because I finally did something mildly accomplishing for myself. Also, the personal essay for this class took me quite awhile to even think of something remotely interesting in my life. I think I did an okay job on it though,  my topic was something that I'm really affected by, but I'm not sure on if the quality of writing was good enough. I guess my grade will be the judge of that.

Something about this week was extra stressful. For not having any majorly hard classes, this week seemed like hell. I'm not too sure if it's my over emotional state of mind, the overthinking about 'not being creative enough' to write, or both at the same time. I guess it's also kind of boring how all I can think of writing about is my stress through out the week. As for my personal essay, I spent maybe a few hours total trying to come up with a theme and topic for my personal essay. I have a general idea on where I want to go with it but, the execution is a work-in-progress. It feels like I'm embarrassed or like I'm scared to share what I want to, fear of judgment is something that's always been with me. Luckily for me, I actually came up with a topic for my history essay. I guess that's something to be happy about? Now there's only the anxiety of it being approved or not and the mental preparation to talk to my professor if my paper says "s

College is exactly what I expected. Now that I'm actually here, it's worse going through it than just thinking about it. One of my weaknesses is writing. Ironic that I'm writing about not being able to write. Lucky for me, I have about three essays, two of which are minimum 4-5 pages, coming up soon. The personal essay coming up seems easy as it is, right? It's about me so it should be pretty easy, right? Wrong. While thinking about what I should write, I've realized that either a) my life is boring, b) I have memory loss, or c) both. As for my other essay? I simply do not want to talk about it. Seeming that I lack creativity, coming up with an argumentative essay topic for ~history~ is not that easy for me. How am I supposed to argue Galileo and Isaac Newton? They're literally dead.

 Like I said, my friends moved away for college about a month ago. Lucky for me they came home this Labor Day Weekend. To make it even better, I had a 5 day weekend rather than 3 days. It might not seem that special to most, but for me it was. Even though they've only been gone for a little, it was so nice to catch up on everything I missed. On a side note, while they were here, we went to see the new Shang-Chi movie. I always say this when I see a new movie in theaters, but that was by far the best movie I have ever seen. Also, I'm not an expert in film and I don't catch on to foreshadowing and other messages. But the acting, the comedy, and the action really made it enjoyable rather than being like "when is this scene going to be over." Other than that, there's nothing too spectacular to share.

      These past few weeks have had some of the best, sad, stressful, and exciting days. The picture shows me and my best friends. About two weeks ago, two of them moved away to go to college. It was sad to see them go away since we saw each other very frequently. They faced many hardships and although I  didn't want to see them go, I have never been more proud of them.      Even though I didn't move away, I still faced some very stressful moments. Going to college is a huge step. Whether it's going to a different state, moving a few hours away or even commuting, it still gets nerve-racking. It was like freshman year of high school all over again. Overall, the first weeks of college were actually enjoyable, it just needed some getting used to.